Sitting here, so quietly
all the while, smiling
while you tell me all these things
I don't blame you, honestly.
I love you so much, actually.
I hate that it is killing me
to listen to
I want to be excited, sure.
But something I want so much more
is to be able to let go
And have a brand new start.
He's wonderful, to say the least,
And that's all I can say for now--
if my heart would stop attempting to destroy me.